I would be remiss if I didn’t take a moment…

December 23, 2009 at 1:24 am (just (me)linda)

The past year and a half have been tricky. So many times I have felt like I’ve reached the limit of what I’m capable of handling, and then my family and I have been asked to take on more. There have been days, like today, when I have to wonder how things can possibly carry on, and in a moment of self-pity, I decide that I am just not strong enough.

Tonight I was humbled to the core. I feel so small for the way I was acting. I don’t know why I have to be reminded over and over that Greg and I are not alone. We have so many people who care for us, and we have the most generous family, friends and neighbors. I honestly don’t know how we have survived the past eight or nine months. It’s just crazy.

To the boy who was hiding behind our dumpster tonight: I don’t know who you are, but you have my heartfelt thanks. You can’t even know…

And to the countless others who have provided in one way or another to my family: I love you. Thank you.

I am speechless.

Except maybe for this: I know there is a time and a season for all things. I know my family is where it is for a reason. I love Greg with all my heart, and have never been more sure that he and I were meant to be together. I know that we have a Heavenly Father who is mindful of us, and I am beyond grateful for how He watches over my family. I love this talk, but I sort of hate it at the same time because it lists things I don’t want to hear. Like “it’s for your good” and “bear it well.” Mostly because I hate to admit that I know “it is”, and I know “I should.” Thank goodness for a bigger perspective, and the experiences that remind me to pull my head out, and take note that this is but a small moment.